worried, again.

and happy at the same time.

I was 146.0 this morning, can you believe it???? What worries me is the fact that I'm losing the weight so quickly. I went from 150ish to 146 in less than two weeks. This is uncharacteristic and shouldn't be happening since I'm probably nearing my body's "natural / healthy" weight.

What bothers me is that I feel like I am eating enough, and I am definitely eating well these days, but then I think back on the amount of calories I must have eaten in the day and it is very low. Then I try to top up to make sure I'm not undereating. I am just not as hungry, nor as indulgent as I was before. This was helped by the fact that I felt nauseous every time I ate last week. I got a little bit of nausea yesterday, but not enough to keep me from eating.

In any case, as long as I am not starving myself and I'm eating nutritious food, I will try to just enjoy the fact I'm losing weight and almost at 10 lbs from my goal.

Wow, what a journey this has been and still is. The stakes are always changing, and my mindset has changed so many times. I think it's important that I look back at the beginning of my blog once in a while to remind myself what my initial goals were so I don't lose focus. But it is also important for me to set new goals since I have achieved most of what I wanted to accomplish, most importantly, to be healthy.

I have to get going... I just want work to be done with so I can go play vball again :)