With a goal like weight loss, it's hard to keep your eye on the prize. I am quite proud of myself for my progress so far, but it's not enough to me to be halfway there. It's hard not to get caught up in the daily and weekly fluctuations--I always panic a little thinking I am heading in the wrong direction again. All I want is to be at a size I think is right for me, and as it stands that's still unattainable in my mind. I am occasionally worried some major life event will come interrupt my progress. To overcome this, I remind myself that every day counts, because who knows what will happen tomorrow...
I am still at 164.2. I am working hard to see 163 or 162 again. Then I will really feel like I've hit a milestone: 20 lbs. I want to be able to go on vacation next year and wear a bikini to play soccer on the beach without hesitation. That will take a lot of work, but these are small things that would just make life a little less inconvenient :)
So aside from being a little down this week since I only got a glimpse of 163 last week and it has yet to show its coveted little face again since, I am trying to alternate between focusing on weekly progress and long term objectives.
I didn't sleep so well last night due to a combination of coffee and shisha (I really need to learn from my mistakes because I've been doing this all week, except with green tea), and had difficulty breathing. So this morning was tough. I did manage to get down to the gym, and was excited and pissed off all at once that Mr./Mrs. Treadmill weren't there so I could have my machine (I had gotten used to them not being there on Tuesdays, but they came this Tuesday and I was annoyed naturally). I was a little pissed off after my initial elation because I am so tired, so the idea of running made me cringe a little. So instead of torturing myself, I merely walked quickly on a steep incline and did 3 intervals of running for about 2 minutes each time. It wasn't much but I was sweating like a pig, so clearly it was still an effective workout (thanks to shisha :) Oh and Mr./Mrs. Treadmill did show up, just one minute after me, so I had a snarky giggle inside.
I did the plank, arm curls and other arm weights, circles with my legs for inner thighs, squats and stretching. And I am thinking I'll definitely need to see my personal trainer again after I move (whenever that will be) because I have absolutely no definition in most parts of my body. Even at the peak of my fitness on two soccer teams and a swim team I was never toned, so it doesn't come naturally. I don't want to be all muscle and no softness, but a little less softness would be ideal to me :)
I just finished up some Raisin Bran and a kiwi, and for lunch I'm having leftovers from dinner, delicious nachos! I made nachos with cajun chicken breast slices, jalapeno/red/yellow peppers, tomatoes, avocado, aged white cheddar, a little bit of salsa, hot sauce and lime juice. I accompanied it with some plain Greek yogurt as a substitute for sour cream, and it certainly did the job. It was more of a dry nacho plate than usual, but it was yum-my!
Alright, I am off. Keep up all your plans for 2010, it's almost halfway done, can you believe it?
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