Well, after all my griping about being at 140, I must point out a few positives. Thanks to a reminder from a previously unknown blog follower, Drazil (whose blog I will start to discover on the weekend), I have to be happy right now with what I've got.
First off, even though the scale is stuck roughly between 136-141 at any given point, my measurements have not changed. In fact, I am seeing muscles emerge that were previously non-existent, and I am much happier with my body these days. My bum and stomach and thighs (the bane of every woman's existence) are looking better and better thanks to the running.
The fact that I have achieved my mission of giving myself a body that would be prepared for any challenge, whether just fighting the common cold or running a marathon, is worthy of a pat on the back, and took a lot of very hard work. THAT, alone, was probably the toughest part of all this, but by far more fun than trying to lose fat by eating well hahah!
My eating habits are very healthy now, and even when I have such prized days off from this challenge, I don't overindulge like I may have done any day of the week before.
My mental health is much more under control, partly thanks to working out, eating and sleeping well, and partly due to having a new, loving and supportive relationship.
The scale is only controlling my thoughts at the moment because I know if I don't get the bonus points for losing 1% of my body weight this week, there is absolutely no chance of me and my friend winning haha! In theory, my mind would be at ease at 125-130 lbs, which would give me from 130-135 as a threshold for knowing when I need to ramp up my efforts over time, but if I can make it to 135 and hold that for a while, my body looks great here and I should just shut it and be happy.
I bought a "little black dress" today, and much to my amazement, it was a size 4. This, too, is fairly insignificant, especially since it's a stretchy dress, but the point is that I've made it, and the dress flatters my figure completely and is super sexy. I am so pleased. eeeee!
Sorry for going on and on loving myself, but I need to remind myself sometimes of what I am accomplishing, so that I slow down on being so hard on me.
Much courage to those killer ladies out there trying to lose 25, 50, 100 or 200 lbs... It takes great mental strength, sustained for life.
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